Questioning my identity:
Existence
I used google to answer the definition of Existence:
“Existence is defined as the state of being alive, present and real.” (YourDictionary.com)
So immediately I question; what is being alive, present and real?
Is my identity as Camilla real?
Am I present when I am using my mind to reinforce the story of who I think I am? The qualities and attributes of Camilla?
And how I would describe me, I know is completelty different to how someone else would. So what is real?
What are my beliefs?
And then, are my beliefs real?
Am I alive?
Who am I?
So I went from Existence to who am I? And, am I alive?
I am Eternal. I am Love. I am Freedom. I am Intention. Those statements ring true to me.
So is it the intention that created Camilla?
Yes, that seems logical to me.
So I am way more than Camilla. Camilla is a name someone else gave me.
It is a word.
Who I am is beyond words.
I am the essence behind the creation of physical form.
I am the creator. The source. The universe.
So what do I believe about existence?
After the beautiful experience of channeling with Siil Canaan my beliefs have changed a lot.
I feel my belief system has expanded tremendously, and it is more a knowing than a belief, that I am not only Camilla, but so much more, and her creation is a small part of my whole. The name Camilla has no meaning but the meaning I, or my family and friends, give.
So existence is a creation?
Existence is energy?
What is existence?
Can words ever explain existence?
So many marvellous questions....
The philosophy being one thing, but the experience of existence, of being present, alive, and real, is what will define existence for me.
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When all my identification or beliefs of who I am is gone.
What is left is the knowing and the experience of what is existence.
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- North
(November 2020)
Questioning my identity:
What is Belief?
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be·lief
noun
An acceptance that a statement is true or that something exists.
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A belief is nothing but a set of thoughts we have inherited and taken ownership of from our family growing up, from what we have read or watched on TV, the news, from our teachers and other people in our life’s.
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And Voila. There we have it. Our whole world created from a very limited few years on this earth and very few sources and then we make them our law. We make the beliefs our whole life. And we cling to them, we fight for them and we think without them we are nothing.
So is what you believe true?
Are your beliefs true to other people?
Do you believe the same as other people?
So what is really true?
Has your beliefs changed as you got older?
Does what you believe create your life?
Do you want to change any of your beliefs?
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These are sting questions.
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As I started to look at my beliefs and sitting down with south and together write what we believe and then we added another column what would we rather believe.
It was fascinating. I am such a product of my upbringing, the Swedish society.
Many of my beliefs serve me very well others not so.
As we continued looking at beliefs such as
- 'I have to work hard to earn money'
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Just looking, reading and questioning and talking about my beliefs helped loosen them a bit.
Like Siil Canaan says, laugh at them. Oh here you are again!
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I also started looking for proof of the new believes I wanted. Who do I know that lives by that belief? How is that working out for them? Gather the evidence so to speak.
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Sill Canaan says;
“Every time you don’t believe your beliefs that’s freedom.”
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- North
What is Belief?
​
be·lief
noun
An acceptance that a statement is true or that something exists.
​
A belief is nothing but a set of thoughts we have inherited and taken ownership of from our family growing up, from what we have read or watched on TV, the news, from our teachers and other people in our life’s.
​
And voilà! There we have it. Our whole world created from a very limited few years on this earth and very few sources and then we make them our law. We make the beliefs our whole life. And we cling to them, we fight for them and we think without them we are nothing.
So is what you believe true?
Are your beliefs true to other people?
Do you believe the same as other people?
So what is really true?
Has your beliefs changed as you got older?
Does what you believe create your life?
Do you want to change any of your beliefs?
​
These are sting questions.
​
As I started to look at my beliefs and sitting down with south and together write what we believe and then we added another column what would we rather believe.
It was fascinating. I am such a product of my upbringing, the Swedish society.
Many of my beliefs serve me very well others not so.
As we continued looking at beliefs such as; 'I have to work hard to earn money'
​
Just looking, reading and questioning and talking about my beliefs helped loosen them a bit.
Like Siil Canaan says, laugh at them. Oh here you are again!
​
I also started looking for proof of the new believes I wanted. Who do I know that lives by that belief? How is that working out for them? Gather the evidence, so to speak.
​
Sill Canaan says;
“Every time you don’t believe your beliefs that’s freedom.”
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- North
